Brenda stood on the deck of the Quartermaine yacht.
They were all headed
to Brooklyn for Ned and Lois's wedding. Everyone was having a good time,
but her. She suddenly felt someone watching her. It was Sonny.
''Can we talk?''
''I'd really just like to enjoy the view.''
''Can we enjoy it together?''
She went and sat down. Anywhere away from him.
''Brenda, I'll make you a deal.''
''No deals Sonny. I'm tired and I don't want to live by your rules
''What are you saying?''
''I'm saying... I'm done. I'm through. No more. I'll pack my things as
soon as we get back to PC.''
''What the hell are you talking about?''
''It's over Sonny. You can have your space back.''
''I don't want it back. I want you! Where the HELL is this coming
''Sonny, listen. We don't fit. We're too different. I need someone who
will talk to me, you need someone like.. like Lily.''
''What?! Brenda, you're not making any sense. Why are you doing this?''
''I'm doing this because its right. It doesnít work anymore. We don't
''Youíre lying. To me and to yourself. Donít do this.''
''Its already done. When we get back to Port Charles Iím gonna get my
things from the apartment. Iíd appreciate it if you werenít there.''
''Why? So it'll be easier? So you won't have to look in my eyes when I'm
pleading with you to stay?''
''Tough. You don't want this.''
''Yes I do. I wanna know that when I take a shower I donít have to worry
about being shot.'' He flinched.
''I'll do anything to keep you.''
''You can't. There's nothing you can do. It's over Sonny.''
''Yes.'' She stood up and walked inside. She made a beeline for the
ladies room and locked herself in. She had gotten out of Sonnyís eyeline
just in time. The tears spilt over and ran down her cheeks as she sank
to the floor, sobbing. Sonny was right. She didnít want to do this. She
had to do this. She had to distance herself from him that way it would
hurt less if he got hurt or died. But why did it have to hurt so much?
Sonny stood on the deck. He felt the tears coarse down his face. He
heard her words. ''Its over Sonny.'' It couldnít be over. Not like this.
But it was. The one thing he feared most since they had gotten together
was happening. He was losing her and it was his fault. She was scared to
death and that was his fault to. What was he supposed to do without her?
The thought of going on was inconceivable to him. She was his life, his
whole world. But he had never told her that and now it was too late.
''Sonny? Are you okay?''
Sonny turned around. Lily was standing there.
''Sonny what happened? Are you alright?''
He shook his head. She went over to him and wrapped her arms around him.
They stayed on the deck wrapped in each other for a long time.
Finally Sonny pulled away.
''Sonny, what happened?''
''Brenda left me.'' He said it so quietly he could barely hear it
''Sonny I'm so sorry. I hate to say this, but Brenda doesn't understand.
She doesn't understand you or your business. It's better this way. Trust
Brenda sat on the floor of the ladies room. The yacht swayed slightly,
but still she felt like she was going to throw up. Probably because she
had just left the man she loved.
''Why did you do it? Oh, yeah because it's safer away from him.'' Then
she thought back to all the fights and they way he seemed more
interested in Lily, than her.
''Why did he give up so easily? Why didn't he fight harder to hang on to
Stone and Robin found Lily and Sonny on the deck. Lily excused herself
and left the three friends.
''Sonny, what happened? You look like you just got sucker punched.''
''I did. Brenda called it quits.''
''Whatta mean? You mean you two broke up?''
''Ah, man. That's crazy! Why? What did you do to her now?''
''I nearly got her killed. Is that a good enough reason for you?''
''Man I'm sorry.''
''Me too Sonny.'' Sonny looked at Brenís surrogate little sister
''Robin do you think you could talk to her? Make her see that she's
making a mistake.''
''Sonny, don't ask me to get in the middle of this.''
Oh alright. But if she kills me I'm coming back to haunt YOU.''
''Deal. Thanks Robin.''
''Thank me later with a piece of chocolate mousse.'' She kissed Stone
and headed inside. Her first stop was the ladies room. She tried the
door but found it was locked. She knocked on it.
''Bren? You in there? It's Robin.''
''Go away Robin. I'm not in the mood for talking.''
''Bren, please. I just need to know that youíre alright.'' A few minutes
of silence and then Robin heard the lock click and then the door opened
''C'mon in.'' Robin stepped inside and took a good look at her best
friend. Her face was tearstained and she looked like her dog had just
''Awww honey. Címere.'' Robin enveloped her in a hug. She was shaking
like a leaf. Then they sat down on the floor.
''Ya wanna talk about it?''
''It hurts Robin. God this hurts so much.''
''Why are you doing it then?''
''I can't believe this.'' Sonny said as he stared at the water.
''I don't know what to say man, except that I'm sorry.''
''Yeah me too.'' He looked down and then back up. ''I can't even imagine
life without her. Itís too hard. I hate the thought of sleeping without
her. I don't even remember what its like not to sleep with her next to
me. Not to have her there when I wake up and feel her breath. I canít
lose her Stone. I canít.''
''I know man. You and Brenda belong together just like me and Robin,
Lois and Ned, hell even Luke and Laura. It'll work out.''
''But what if it doesnít?"
Brenda looked at Robin. "I'm doing this because it's what's best."
"Best? Best for who? Sonny's miserable and you're in here crying."
"Robin. I can't explain it. I love Sonny more than anything, but I can't
keep doing this to myself."
"This, Robin. He puts my life in danger, and then says it won't happen
again, but it does. He's lying to me, Robin. I know he is."
"He's not out of the mob. I think he's running things."
"What? Where did you come up with that idea?"
"After the shower, I went to see Mike in the hospital and we started
talking. Robin, it doesn't make sense that these guys, would come after
Sonny just because he went legit. He has to be calling the shots. It's
the only thing that makes sense."
"Sonny, ya know I love you right?"
"I mean what you're doing for me and Robin, well it means a lot to us.
But, I gotta tell ya man, I'm not surprised that Bren split when she
did. In fact I'm a little surprised she didn't do it sooner."
"If that's suppose to cheer me up Stone it isn't working."
"Sonny, I don't have a lot of time left. So I'm gonna tell you the
truth. Brenda loves you, and I know you love her. But you gotta let HER
"I do, Stone."
"No, Sonny you don't. At least not in a way that she can understand."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, you're to hard on her, Sonny. You don't trust her, and you
should spend less time with Lily."
"Lily? Not you too! Stone Lily is my FRIEND! that's it."
"I know that and you know that, but Bren doesn't. She thinks that Lily's
feelings for you are more than friendship, and I think she's right."
"Sonny, I think that Lily's in love with you. Remember how you went
crazy when you thought that Miguel had the hots for Brenda? (Sonny
nodded) Well it's the same thing here, except that Miguel didn't want
Brenda and Lily does want you. You better be careful Sonny."
"Careful? About what?"
"Well, it seems to me that Lily knows a little to much about your other
business, and well, I think that Lily is a little to good to be true."
It had been 2 weeks, since that day on the yacht. The wedding had been
difficult. When Sonny had watched Brenda walk down the aisle, he
couldn't help himself from seeing her wearing a wedding dress. However,
when they got back to PC, she did as she said she would and moved out.
Brenda had moved into the Brownstone. She liked living close to Felicia
and Bobbie. The place was nice. It had 2 bedrooms and large
living/dining room. She was teaching herself how to cook, but so far
the only thing she could make was a decent hamburger. She was keeping
herself busy with Deception and L&B. But, every night she dreamt of
Sonny spent most of his time downstairs in the club. He hated going
upstairs to their place. It was too empty. He had slept on the couch
since she left. He couldn't force himself to sleep in their bed without
her. He missed her so much. He was wandering around their bedroom one
morning, when he found something behind the dresser. It was a beautiful
antique necklace. It had been her maternal grandmother's. It was the
only thing she had of her mother. He thanked god for this excuse to see
Brenda had felt sick all morning.
"I think maybe I should give up trying to cook." Just as she said this
she ran to the bathroom to throw up for the third time. She laid down
on her couch, hoping that this wave of nausea would pass. The doorbell
rang. She got up and opened the door.
"Sonny? What are you doing here?"
"I found this behind the dresser." He said holding up the necklace.
"Thank you. I thought I lost it." She said taking it from him.
"Can I come in for a minute?"
"Sonny I'm not feeling well right now so I don't think it'd be such a
"I just want to talk."
"There's nothing to talk about."
"I think there is. Please?"
"Alright." She stepped aside an allowed him to enter. "Have a seat.
Do you want something to drink?"
"No I'm fine. Bren?"
"I miss you."
"Sonny it won't work. We won't work."
"How can you say that?"
"I can't be who you need."
"You already are."
"You need someone who won't ask any questions and who won't talk to you
and who won't try and make you express your feelings. I need someone
who will talk to me and let me know how they're feeling."
"You wanna know how I'm feeling? I'll tell you. I can't sleep at
night. I think about you all the time. I love you. I want you back.
I want you in my life. Hell you are my life."
"Sonny don't do this. Don't make this any harder than it has to be."
"It's already hard. It's hard not sleeping next to you at night. It's
hard not seeing your face when I wake up in the morning or feeling your
breath when I fall asleep at night."
"Sonny what do you want me to do?"
"Come home. Please come home."
"I can't Sonny. We can't be together. Why don't you listen to me?"
"I do listen to you, when you're telling the truth, and right now you're
"Sonny it won't work between us."
"Because you don't trust me."
"I trust you more than any woman in my life."
"No you don't! Sonny if you trusted me at all you would be honest with
me about your mob connections."
"How many times do I have to tell you that I'm out before you'll believe
Brenda stood there amazed.
"You say you trust me? Then why did you just lie to my face? Sonny, I
think you better leave. I have things to do."
"Please Sonny, before I say something that I might regret. Go be happy.
That's what I want for you, Sonny. I'm sure Lily would like the chance
"Brenda, stop it. You know that Lily and I are just friends."
"It really doesn't matter anymore. I have no say in who your friends
are. I'm sorry Sonny, but it's over."
"Like hell it is."
He grabbed her and kissed her hard, she kissed him back. Neither wanted
it to end. Finally Sonny pulled back. He held her face in his hands and
rested his forehead against hers.
"What the hell gives you the right!" Brenda tried to scream at Sonny,
instead it came out in a whisper.
Sonny was crying slightly now. "I love you and you love me. No words can
change that. You can't make yourself fall out of love Brenda. I'll go,
but I want you to know that I'm not giving up. I'll never give up."
He shut the door and Brenda crumpled to the floor. "I love you too,