"Secret Soul" from the musical Jane Eyre
Music and lyrics by Paul Gordon
Brenda (as Jane)
What can I do now, my precious Lord?
His dark love would be my best reward. . .
I know I should not dare to go
Deeper in his madness
But it's like a field I must run through. . .
No one's words would make me love him less!
How much can I stand? I dare not guess. . .
The secret voice that speaks to me
Tells me he's in danger,
Looking to the dust for tenderness. . .
Deep in my secret soul, I stand alone.
The purpose of why I'm here
Is still unknown.
In the darkness of his day, he's nearly blind
But I keep looking for his goodness,
Afraid of what I'll find. . .
My heart moves through his unquiet sea. . .
I pray a wave will come and carry me
Closer to his troubled tide,
Waters of his fury. . .
But how can I swim this great divide?
Deep in my secret soul, I cry his tears. . .
Sonny's voice (as Rochester)
My secret soul cries out loud. . .
Brenda
I weather his angry voice, I feel his fears. . .
Sonny
This angry voice cries out. . .
Both
His/her light has infected every wound and every pore
I feel his/her mystery possess me,
And I pray that mercy's hand will bless me!
Brenda
Deep in his secret soul, his heart is cursed!
Sonny
Deep in my secret soul, my heart is cursed!
Brenda
I summon my deepest will to still his thirst!
Sonny
And I pray that. . .
Both
God give me the strength to go
Deep within his/my secret soul!